i'm not even breathing.
15. hw: 112. cw: 87. ugw: 0. suicide attempts: 2. cutting. burning. anorexia/bulimia. depression. anxiety. once a mess, always a mess.
(Source: fearlessknightsandfairytales, via herbuttonsyourbuttons)
Vent//
I’m the worst person in the world. 3 years ago we met, became bestfriends, and now were finally going out; But i’m lying to you. You’re so perfect and think I am too, so I can’t even tell you the truth.. How I get nervous when you touch me because I was raped in April. That I don’t wear shorts because my thighs are covered in scars and cuts. The verticle scar up my arm isn’t from my dog, I tried to slice open my veins and bleed to death. The circle scars on my hands? Those are from burning myself on purpose not accident. I drink so much because it makes me forget, not because I like too party. I’m anorexic and bulimic, that’s why I’m so thin.. it’s not from my medications. I hear voices in my head that tell me to kill myself and others, to lose weight, grab the razor and slit my throat, jump off the roof. Crying myself to sleep is a daily ritual. I’m getting my GED in may because my anxietys too bad for school, not because I want to start college sooner. I ditch you sometimes because I feel too fat. It actually hurts so bad when you joke around saying I’m fat even though you always tell me I’m too skinny. everything about is complete perfection and you’re stuck with me; The worlds most disgusting human being. You’re going to be so disapointed if you ever find out the truth…
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